Soul Magic
MY CAW OF THE
By Ginny of
My dad died of a massive heart attack at 73 on
I was finding it most difficult to grieve my father who was
a bigger than life person professionally and personally in a community who had
never met him or known of his awards and accomplishments in the courtroom or
experienced the thrill of hearing him tell a story of any kind. He made
people you never knew come to life by his sharing.
I had begun to find great peace in taking long walks often
up to two hours on weekends. This was
for my health and wellbeing but became a place I could pray and ask help to
grieve, heal and feel my dad in someway with me now.
Much to my surprise on a walk I heard a familiar sound that
stopped me dead in my tracks and I realized I felt GOOD hearing this sound and
it made me think of GOOD things about my dad!
Oddly enough this sound is familiar to most though not appreciated by most!
It is the cawing of a Crow!
It was then I began using Crow as a sign that my dad was
with me, saying “Yes, Ginny, you are okay and doing a good job in your life.” Cawing became my affirmation from Dad. I don’t hear a crow or see a crow on all my
walks BUT am amazed at how often Crow does appear…especially if I ask Dad to
“show up” on a certain day.
A neighbor and I have been training this past summer to walk in a half marathon. I shared my Crow experience with him and he said “Well, Ginny, there must be something to this because I have never heard nor been followed by crows on my walks!”
The Sunday before our event we decided we ought to walk
together to see if we were compatible! Ha-ha!
After an hour, I returned home thinking it was odd not to have heard or
at least seen a crow on our walk. I
grabbed a huge glass of water and sat down at my computer which faces out
towards the front of my house. I live in
a cul-de-sac in a new development so trees are few and far between. In fact, I
have one tiny little tree in front that is the only tree for five houses.
I realized movement was taking place outside my window. I get up to check it out after having said aloud “Gee, no crows today. I wonder where you are this morning, Dad?” Low and behold in my tree are five big black crows as well as three sitting atop the city lamppost on the side of my front yard!
I was laughing to myself when suddenly, almost like in the Hitchcock movie The Birds, crows began landing in the cul-de-sac to the tune of 11 or 12 in total! I was stunned and laughed out loud. I phoned my neighbor and said “you have to look outside at the crows--they are just in MY yard!” He laughed and said “Ginny, your dad and his Sunday morning Heavenly Harley buddies must be dropping in to say hello to you.”
So, that is what I believed happened. Why not? What’s the harm in using nature to help you
get in touch with someone who was special to you in so many ways while on earth?
Now
I can focus on just the positives that we shared as father and daughter. No need to dwell on what cannot be changed.
Been there, done that, one too many times!
I have been blessed in learning to take long walks without
my Ipod so that I could become aware of the sounds of nature and think how I
feel when I hear these sounds. I
encourage everyone to quiet themselves in some way at some time during your
week to see where you are being “cawed’ to focus yourself… You don’t want to
miss hearing a positive sound meant just for you!
Happy Trails to all as you journey forward!
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© Ginny in